I was up late last night, weeping and praying, after I watched the video of Zach’s family reflecting on his life and death since a year after his passing. It was both heartbreaking and incredibly inspiring to say the least. I have shared his mom’s book “Fly A Little Higher” with you and it still lingers in the deepest parts of my heart. And after watching the powerful video, my heart is torn right back open again, but somehow it’s mended back together sewn by pieces of hope, as the story continues to have a deep and lasting impact on me. Watch it here.
I have also been hit hard with the story of a precious faithful mom sharing her agonizing and yet inspiring account of the recent death of her precious little boy, Ben. After discovering he had a rare aggressive brain tumor, they have shared this horrific journey with hundreds of readers through her blog, And now? Ben resides in Heaven…according to her passionate testimony. My heart broken into pieces once again, as it cracked right open the floodgates of tears and gasping breaths… trying to wrap my head around the depths of her despair and the comfort of her faith.
Another faithful mom is suffering through the year anniversary of her precious baby girl’s death and just yesterday was sweet Peyton’s birthday. . She too, has a heartbreaking story filled with intense anguish as she clings to her deep abiding hope that her baby is now home in Heaven. I have been praying for her all month, as well as the other mothers who have had to endure such pain and suffering. I simply can’t fathom surviving such a loss. Can you imagine? Perhaps some of you can. And for those who have experienced the loss of a child, I mourn so deeply with you. I have no words for that kind of grief.
If it wasn’t enough to be grappling with these painful stories, I continue to be reminded of Heaven’s refuge for my dear soul sister Kim. Every time she shares passionate pieces of her heart on my blog about her sister Kay, who was murdered by Kay’s husband, I imagine her precious sister dancing in the illumination of His Light in heaven. Kim passionately believes that her beloved sister rests in God’s arms now, as she clings to this truth in order to survive this world without Kay.
I have another dear friend who recently asked for prayer as he is currently watching two out of four of his brothers slowly near the end of their lives. One struck with Lung Cancer and the other with progressive MS. Both too young to die. Such sadness and pain engulfs this bond of brothers… He passionately believes they will be called to Heaven’s Door when they pass.
I find it no coincidence that I have been listening to “90 Minutes In Heaven” these past few weeks. I have read the book before, but decided to get the audio book and soak it all in once again. Don Piper survived an unbelievable car crash, leaving him ‘deceased’ for 90 minutes… eventually brought back to life through the powerful prayers of a faithful man. His testimony is deeply moving as is his recollection of his experience in Heaven- both nothing short of extraordinary.
With all of this swirling in my heart, I keep reflecting on the powerful book, “Heaven Is For Real”. I read it to my sweet kids in Sunday school last summer. This too, is another riveting account of an experience a young boy had in Heaven while on the operating table in the hospital. This book is a must read for all who want to see Heaven through the eyes of an innocent child.
My friends, we are surrounded by the looming truth that conquers this world. It will eventually take us all…
And although our lives are spent living and navigating this life with philosophical ideas and deep-introspective searches that form our values and principles in how to live, there comes a moment in each of our lives where we must wonder…
What happens when we die?
I am inviting you to share your thoughts and beliefs and ideas about this very thing. It is a discussion worthy of this blog, and most importantly worthy of our lives. We can continue to distract ourselves with this life, this world…
But in the end?
What happens next?
Most of you know that I am a faithful follower of Jesus Christ. I find my hope in Heaven and have grown a deep belief in this Truth. I can’t seem to find any other way to get past death. I cling to the Grace of God’s given Son who offers the gift to His children- to be righteous and welcomed into God’s Kingdom. This makes sense to me.
“Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” John 14:6
Some people believe that if you are ‘good enough’ you will go to Heaven.
Who is good enough? How is that measured?
I’ve always wondered this. How would God choose the ones worthy of Heaven? If we work hard enough and do enough ‘good deeds’, does He calculate the cost? Would a parent put that kind of condition on their love for a child? And if He sees into our thoughts and knows our heart- surely none of us would make it in. Lord knows I would never make it through those pearly gates!
“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” Ephesisans 2:8-9
I know there are countless philosophies about Heaven, God, and what exists beyond this life we hold in our fragile mortal hands. I also know there are countless religions and faiths that believe differently than I. I want to hear your theories and thoughts, because it is probably the most significant part of life we can explore.
I am submerged in this place of wonder. Of realization. Of deep revelation as I find myself entrenched in the agonizing pain of loss and the beautiful hint of hope, through these inspiring souls who have walked their own children to the other side- whatever you claim it to be.
If you are a mother, what would you cling to for hope- if you had to bear the horrific burden of your child’s death? Perhaps this is too intense to even allow in our minds, our hearts, our souls. I know. But we have all experienced the pain of losing a loved one, and I wonder where you find your comfort? Your hope?
This is so stirring, and yet it’s something we must attend to…
And when I go ‘there’, I gasp with relief, knowing and believing in the hope of Heaven.
Whatever your beliefs, I pray you find your own comfort and peace to cling to when faced with the unimaginable and inevitable force of nature.
My friends, what lies beyond this world for you?