I wonder why I finally felt compelled to go get my sinus suffering checked out at the doctor, after all these years. I wonder why I decided it was time. I wonder why I went out of my busy way to get tested for allergies and then follow through on a referral to an ENT. I paused every step of the way…who has time for that?
And yet, there’s always a reason whether we see it or not.
A friend recently told me he knew of an older woman who had the same tumor in the exact same area, and although hers was benign as well, when she had hers removed- it left her face paralyzed and her one ear deaf.
I wonder how big her tumor grew through the years, and I wonder if she had caught it in time- she wouldn’t have those dire consequences.
And as I fumble around these past few weeks in a state of wretched pain, each time I feel those surges deep in my ear and the throbbing in my face…
I grow deeper and deeper into the awareness that once again,
I was saved from something that could have been so much worse.
Had I not forged through this unexpected turn of events.
When I saw my doctor this week for another follow up check on my incisions and healing, I inquired more about this ‘thing’ that happened to me. She confirmed that the consequences of this tumor could have been devastatingly worse. Deaf and paralysis worse. I was also told that this awful pain is common for a surgery like mine. As I continue to feel the burning, throbbing and down right aching that screams at times all throughout my ear and face, I realize the reason why we needed to get this out as soon as possible.
And I am taught the valuable lesson once again.
And over and over again.
That when you face an unexpected bump in your road, a turn in your path, a barricade that catapults you into a wide-open crack in the pavement.
No matter how difficult it may be…
It could have been much, much worse.
Remember that, my friends.