I’ve written several times about my daughter’s medical struggles through her first ten years of life. I’ve shared stories of despair and messages of hope and encouragement through her incredible rise of health and strength from years of fighting hard for it. Those ten years were difficult, overwhelming, and exhausting. There were times I was so afraid I could barely breath, and other times I felt hopeless and defeated in the fight to get my baby well. The anxiety was unbearable, as every parent who has a sick child knows. It’s palpalpable in the thick of the night especially, isn’t it?
Oh I remember it all so vividly…
There was one fateful evening, when she had been sick for weeks right after my son was born. My greatest fear was having her be terribly ill, as I was tending to my newborn baby. It happened. One evening as I held her, she seemed to grow more fatigued and lifeless while struggling to breathe. I checked her temperature- 105.9, so we flew to the hospital afraid of such a high fever. While sitting in the front seat of the car as my husband drove, I began to sob and tell him how frightened I was about her being so sick. I was a hormonal, exhausted, terrified mama.
What happened next, was and still is the most profound moment in my parenting years to date. My precious and very sick baby girl whispered something from the back seat that continues to echo in my heart to this day. I couldn’t believe her then, but as I look back through all the hard memories- I realize she was right. And she still is.
I was astounded in her ability to tune into me at such a young age and when she was so ill, to offer her mama such incredible encouragement. I see it now, everyday. Her gift of encouragement and hope from her relentless positive perspective. What a journey we have taken to get here.
For all you mothers who are feeling hopeless, scared, alone and unsure if everything is really going to be okay with your child.
Let my daughter’s prophetic words fill you with confidence too.